ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh my.
I woke up this morning and ok..... I am awake, I'm up, I'm going through the 
motions. I'm rolling down the road at 5.20am. But I am not having fun. I meet up 
with my friend after climbing a short sharp hill to get there and going lactic 
in the first 2kms of the ride. We head off and it is sooo dark I can't see a 
thing in front of me. Yup my light isn't working. My friend's is but I can't see 
round her. No offense but she is a big girl. Anyways the road is covered in 
little rocks. Scarey stuff. Now I wish for cars to go by so they can light the 
road for just a moment so I can see the road ahead. My legs are tired. YOu know 
that tired where it feels like you're packing 5 kilo weights strapped round your 
ankles. My shins/calves are tight and my head isn't happy. It is so dark we 
abort our planned route and take one that will lead us on further down the 
highway and towards a big long hill. The flat is a relief and the ride has only 
just begun. "Come on Sammi, find the mojo." No go. We find the base of the hill 
and begin the grind and I wait for the body to respond. But nothing happens. I 
can't turn back, its a dual carriage highway...it's onward and upward. "Common 
TRiathlete, get your a$$ up the hill!" I find a high gear and spin my legs and 
crawl slowly up the hill. Finally at the top some relief as we have a slight 
down hill and a turn to the left. A short rollercoaster dip and then relief as 
we find a long steep downhill run. I get into the aero position and feel the 
wind whistling past my ears, my legs sigh relief. I glance at the horizon and 
across the sea the sun is struggling just like me. There is a band of cloudy 
mist hugging the horizon. The sun and I have something in common this 
morning....a foggy start. At the bottom of the hill the road winds round a lazy 
river where we swim. This morning the mud is showing through as the tide has run 
out. The river and I have something in common, this morning......we are both 
empty. Over a bridge and out into the country side and the bumpy original route 
we had planned now has a grey outline where we can distinguish the bumps and pot 
holes. Farmers share this road and drive the cows to the dairy and so the 
council has never bothered to resurface this road. The cows and I have something 
in common this morning.....we are challenged by the pitfalls of a bumpy road. I 
search my head for strategies to rise myself above my present challenge. I have 
nothing. I call to my friend that we will ride to the 'Turn around point" and 
head for home. My body wants to turn around now...my bed is calling me holding 
me to ransom...."See you should have stayed with me, I'm comfortable and snuggly 
and I am the happy place" I reach the turn around point and not even the fact 
that I am heading for home gives my body relief. I remember how big a weekend I 
had and I decide to give myself a break. Let the legs do the speed they want. 
Stop pushing them cause I am not going to win and they will carry me home 
eventually. So at the turn around point I turn my head around and accept that 
today is going to be a day of "let it go Sammi, let it go." As predicted my legs 
finally carried me home. If nothing else I can trust them to do that for me. 
They will always carry me home. Remember that Sammi. No matter how tired they 
are, This too shall pass and they will carry me home. I carried my bike through 
the house and nestled it into it's bed and then I stripped down and fell into my 
own bed. I set the alarm and an hour later started my day again.
 
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